jonamo_cat

06:02 pm: jaws of death
so my major project got the lowest possible passing mark


fantastic

..meanwhile........im bored, and angry.....


colour me frustrated.....but not even about the work....just enough to be digested...not in mind, but in body...



one stands up only so as to bite off the heads of others


two grow back in its place....

....a feast ensues....

every vile imagination of every ego is fed

do not stand!

instead bring others to their knees!

metaphoricaly.....logicaly....remove their footing.....but do not stand...for the temptation to bite off their heads....


........fuck

06:53 pm: math, leibbbniz
http://videolectures.net/ephdcs08_chaitin_lcai/snippet/

06:56 pm: defer onto the bigger picture
all very well to stay focused on realistic things, and not need "beliefs"

never defering life unto a belief

but it seems, the focus that allows a lack of deference, is simply that dionysian focus, which defers unconsciously, into an alternative focus

and the unconscious, if we allow, will....


consciously however, defering unto nothing, as heidegger, is nihilism, and is more of a belief, than the belief in the freedom/unrestrainedness of the unconscious....which heidegger recognised as nietzsche's metaphysics...

becoming conscious, however, seeding science, accepting the unconscious as present in an as yet known in its unknown state, known to have a state, but unknown in its specifics, and even in its ultimate nature...actualy requires a belief...in order to take seed....

....and it is for the sake of progress that we defer, not unto nothingness, but unto our own belief, socratic ignorance, or specific concept....that we generate the explosive force of our awareness....and cast a gaze back upon ourselves....or straight through ourselves (For socrates)...through the very means of this belief....

placing limits upon causality is not identical with a belief in/of knowledge of the present

a push and pull between our objects, is not comparable with the soul that burns between them, hidden by the emense light of the potentials that issue forth from their seperation....

however one might try to break apart the whole world...one will return to one's own soul, however great or small it has grown amidst the flickering lights that the world of unquenchable spirits reap and sow across the mountains and streams of our perceptions